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  <title>I Used to Stutter</title><author>Craig Coffee</author>
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  <sections><section id="the-stuttering-industrial-complex" number="4" first_page="15" last_page="19" heading_page="16"><title>THE STUTTERING INDUSTRIAL COMPLEX</title><url>https://usedtostutter.com/reader/book/editions/corrected-2026-10-04-9e1d376a993f/chapters/the-stuttering-industrial-complex</url></section></sections>
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    <page number="15" id="pdf-page-15" section_id="the-stuttering-industrial-complex" source_text_sha256="2e59bece02860b92548b6de4d769f5aee060af6b921680e12f799dffeba10345" citation_url="https://usedtostutter.com/reader/book/editions/corrected-2026-10-04-9e1d376a993f/full.html#pdf-page-15">
      <block id="p015-b001" type="h2" sha256="6adf83da3bc88fd80d7dea5976af5cb3ff81819cf07b459e378514971b111408" xml:space="preserve">PART 2. FINDING MY WAY OUT</block>
      <block id="p015-b002" type="p" sha256="2a11584fe452e9fb350da3e6c194d1a5c28670065f2e8e3b7094ca46a39bfb4e" xml:space="preserve">I tried the stuttering industrial complex. I spent 9 years in speech therapy. I tried the techniques I was taught. I still struggled to use them when I needed to speak in the real world.</block>
      <block id="p015-b003" type="p" sha256="7208df4b98f0188301331098eee12e9a547617dba0c945549d5323dc184a52f2" xml:space="preserve">In August 2026, an international panel of physicians, speech-language pathologists, and people who stutter published consensus guidelines in Psychiatric Times. Gerald Maguire reported that over 90 percent of the panel considered the current state of treatment poor. The panel also described stuttering as a heterogeneous brain-based disorder and included speech therapy in its treatment discussion. Its criticism concerns the limits of current care and evidence. It does not establish that no treatment helps anyone or that my approach has been clinically tested. What I can show you is what happened in my own life.</block>
      <block id="p015-b004" type="p" sha256="9dae3b8a4bf5993f14ba88c06e858c62aa0827af3547fc4d056cf35ec59b564a" xml:space="preserve">My frustration was the gap between learning a technique and being able to use it when I ordered lunch, answered a phone, or said my name. That is the experience behind what I call the stuttering industrial complex.</block>
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    <page number="16" id="pdf-page-16" section_id="the-stuttering-industrial-complex" source_text_sha256="9ff5d22bfadc3ddeb977a7f3acaa38ff9f3117ac3a6c88fae02e387e613b800c" citation_url="https://usedtostutter.com/reader/book/editions/corrected-2026-10-04-9e1d376a993f/full.html#pdf-page-16">
      <block id="p016-b001" type="h2" sha256="c0c62f0049b17848fb51bee2ba165dd9882d1467dd637a60dcac6ffb1b60e2f6" xml:space="preserve">Chapter 4. THE STUTTERING INDUSTRIAL COMPLEX</block>
      <block id="p016-b002" type="h2" sha256="e79d40a2d022a1970e773c86b1e849d5a0d84df38a9a77b65108cfec5ab68b81" xml:space="preserve">I spent 9 years in speech therapy</block>
      <block id="p016-b003" type="p" sha256="786b81b8609494663f0d09cdb75debd41e0dcbb7e29b3a73f0e2a47e065c1a3a" xml:space="preserve">My grandfather, he had a small stutter, but it was not very pronounced. No matter how our stutter started, we were stuttering, period.</block>
      <block id="p016-b004" type="h2" sha256="a7c69394cfdcdea6edec56bff50c52b1e222ae7dbecc6147eb4c00422c62575a" xml:space="preserve">None of that sh*t worked when I went out to lunch</block>
      <block id="p016-b005" type="p" sha256="0caf7050c105ccdb0d8743ddb06ca426805e0f005bd4bf45288a498a8aeada8a" xml:space="preserve">Well, what I had to do was throw out everything I&apos;ve been taught about how to beat stuttering. All the fluency shaping, stretching out words, breathing techniques. None of that sh*t worked when I went out to lunch, and nervously approached the counter to order my food. It never worked because the situation I found myself in, ordering food at a restaurant from a waiter who goes around the table, coming to me last. The pressure, anxiety, nervousness was never addressed!</block>
      <block id="p016-b006" type="p" sha256="14854b76101ef989dcc8689ae0c49634a482c1d3bbbe89d8d87e4e763900ee79" xml:space="preserve">Wait Craig, did you just say what I think you said? Yup. I needed help with the pressure, anxiety, and nervousness I carried into those situations. The methods I had been taught left me without a way to handle that part of my own experience. I had to keep looking for things I could actually use when it was my turn to speak.</block>
      <block id="p016-b007" type="p" sha256="aa870dbd9aa714c3aed4f52f3b8acaa623d4da9b47e7b46b8fbc6a9e0703949c" xml:space="preserve">Here&apos;s why I think those methods didn&apos;t get me where I wanted to go. Practicing an easy onset, H-h-h-h-h-h-o-o-o-r-s-e, did not give me the speech I needed at a restaurant counter. I needed help that carried into my real life. That&apos;s the standard I was trying to meet.</block>
      <block id="p016-b008" type="p" sha256="5a4990089cf828efc137fb84b133163059a9b5b2b900139f2bc6205d403ddeea" xml:space="preserve">When you stutter for as long as people do, right? It&apos;s not just one thing that can make it better.</block>
      <block id="p016-b009" type="h2" sha256="abfc1101639b5f6d9aa149cca91d1b8e8ff0fe366f4e7aab1025c12933dba405" xml:space="preserve">It was anything but moderate to me</block>
      <block id="p016-b010" type="p" sha256="e4964efe3b90591e57cddfda894e237fa7b181eacac7da1043ef3d286e5e6b8a" xml:space="preserve">Speech therapists officially classified my stutter as moderate. It was anything but moderate to me.</block>
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    <page number="17" id="pdf-page-17" section_id="the-stuttering-industrial-complex" source_text_sha256="ac235687011ac80feadc20eb3efee3c6cc61ba5c376f7c2fced6346dfcc800b3" citation_url="https://usedtostutter.com/reader/book/editions/corrected-2026-10-04-9e1d376a993f/full.html#pdf-page-17">
      <block id="p017-b001" type="h2" sha256="98cf963011fa4c1a018c57ea411f9a05c6f13ee0c10dd1146621f174d2a9bf55" xml:space="preserve">So I had to find my own direction through it.</block>
      <block id="p017-b002" type="p" sha256="a50d6047b729f3c88aeaa5fc56b64554c21f859e9a8b7a856ef02d103f595012" xml:space="preserve">One day I came home from second grade stuttering. My mom tells the story. She had no idea where to turn. She took me to the best professional she could, who worked at the University of Florida. He stuttered himself. I remember wanting to know how he had worked on his own speech. I did not get the clear explanation I was looking for. That tells you what I needed from the conversation; it cannot tell you the whole story of his speech or his ability to help someone else.</block>
      <block id="p017-b003" type="p" sha256="1ef4a0a2df7aeaa04dd730e5d7b27f4636994e06c511202534056d8b8541cca9" xml:space="preserve">I had met 3 people along the way who told me they used to stutter, and my first question was, well, what happened? How&apos;d you not stutter anymore? Because you sound great. They could not articulate how. They could not explain it. So I was like, well, if you can&apos;t explain it, like that provides me no help. It&apos;s like you made it through the jungle, but could you at least point me in the right direction? Right? They did not. So I had to find my own direction through it.</block>
      <block id="p017-b004" type="p" sha256="6754911b80fa9f8669814b8d1f00070f144d561e975c4bedea9ceb31cee28c94" xml:space="preserve">I wish to God someone had given me a clearer clue I could use. I kept looking for help that carried into the moments where I struggled.</block>
      <block id="p017-b005" type="h2" sha256="27452e33d714f8a8742619f6f1ee76cbf54cecee0cc28647d95471e5741694f4" xml:space="preserve">Never worked once in my frat house, never worked once on campus</block>
      <block id="p017-b006" type="p" sha256="6667a51463da7e66749e4b78d3de667964f4a943291da9a56751cf23b98cdc65" xml:space="preserve">So I went to the University of Florida, go Gators, and as a sophomore I lived in a frat house, which I had pledged to freshman year. A frat house was f*cking a dream come true. The problem was it was intimidating as hell. Being around so many people, very chaotic, always talking, girls over, partying, nonstop, nonstop chaos, and it killed my speech. So I checked myself into speech therapy.</block>
      <block id="p017-b007" type="p" sha256="b9a5b44eb28fe66e54ed12f4a92a20a5c42857e1ac25b0f94c7aa0d628ac61b2" xml:space="preserve">Guess who was assigned to help me? A graduate student who never stuttered in her life. But she was cute. She taught me from a textbook. The sh*t she taught me never worked once in my frat house, never worked once on campus, never worked once going out socially. Those were the situations where I wanted the help to make a difference. My speech was so difficult at the time that</block>
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    <page number="18" id="pdf-page-18" section_id="the-stuttering-industrial-complex" source_text_sha256="5d2a25c4e58d4f6449f74b7337d0d21d80aada207e5cb1a59c1e1b9ddf4e537f" citation_url="https://usedtostutter.com/reader/book/editions/corrected-2026-10-04-9e1d376a993f/full.html#pdf-page-18">
      <block id="p018-b001" type="p" sha256="1884242a85d9caed52eb9abe9ece39c475aa32a6cd1c3be4bcd7219d6e186ab3" xml:space="preserve">they gave me a parking pass to park on campus. For the stutter.</block>
      <block id="p018-b002" type="h2" sha256="0112ddbc6861d208441742f813bdfdfe49ca1fa44adf19f7b5d7d159aefbf264" xml:space="preserve">Nothing improved my daily speech struggles.</block>
      <block id="p018-b003" type="p" sha256="6bb25b77990cb8e10f957051b1b4e6ef3b758314353d78ed6478b745e5e8619a" xml:space="preserve">I didn&apos;t go to school for this. I lived it. New therapists, techniques, money spent on supposed experts in Jacksonville: I kept trying, and my daily speech struggles were still there. That&apos;s the experience I&apos;m writing from.</block>
      <block id="p018-b004" type="p" sha256="2db54df85f2f691054bc3b62dd0e82eaffc42276f0e1b4224c6514904ea53821" xml:space="preserve">I spent 9 years in speech therapy. My first speech therapist was very nice and kind, and I liked her. I still left those years without the kind of fluency I wanted in daily life. I wanted to be able to order lunch and say my name when the pressure was on. A person&apos;s own stutter does not tell me whether they can help somebody else. My criticism comes from the help I received and the problems I still had afterward.</block>
      <block id="p018-b005" type="p" sha256="307b1fc2086f8d148225a276a973d756a644bcc5dec1826c775f4523edd57839" xml:space="preserve">Because try doing the breathing when you&apos;re walking up. When there&apos;s a patient who just walks in. Hi, excuse me, ma&apos;am or sir, but I need a minute to do some breathing. I say it to poke fun, knowing how stupid it sounds in real life.</block>
      <block id="p018-b006" type="p" sha256="fb4155f5859c9fbdf831a294f073a818681b36cc6a7ce5f52c66b935e65bfb27" xml:space="preserve">I wanted help that made a difference in those actual moments. That is why I kept looking.</block>
      <block id="p018-b007" type="h2" sha256="59870ba18a549d96306ded2ba046daa6350c4922bfae7a0c810005eee038bd60" xml:space="preserve">I couldn&apos;t do it in front of 15 people in my class</block>
      <block id="p018-b008" type="p" sha256="150fa88088bb8e146395db5eaa4c137ede4a33e448f695a5524accc2b1d3e2d8" xml:space="preserve">10th grade, I decided to take a speech class, public speaking, at my high school. Well, that was brave or foolish, because my speech sucked so bad. I remember standing up there feeling very intimidated. I couldn&apos;t do it in front of 15 people in my class. You know what kind of grade they gave me? A C. You know why? Because they didn&apos;t have the heart to fail me, because I tried. I wanted to talk, but I couldn&apos;t. So, that was Stuttering Craig. That was my life.</block>
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    <page number="19" id="pdf-page-19" section_id="the-stuttering-industrial-complex" source_text_sha256="fc501c0d7c2058c9e488f35f086284cb237ad1406ee0ed1cf8f84a0d0227618b" citation_url="https://usedtostutter.com/reader/book/editions/corrected-2026-10-04-9e1d376a993f/full.html#pdf-page-19">
      <block id="p019-b001" type="h2" sha256="99e44b573e22ce7578797f2db21c43708829c7ac3acb60becf2bf059bd82966d" xml:space="preserve">I had no one to guide me.</block>
      <block id="p019-b002" type="p" sha256="8584c63c2ec066f51de240d32f1d0509cc877368523e8830ce1facb64b6210a4" xml:space="preserve">I wanted to hear from someone who had worked through the kinds of speaking moments I found painful. Saying a name. Ordering food. Speaking at work or school. I wanted the person to explain what they actually did and how they used it. That was the kind of guidance I was looking for.</block>
      <block id="p019-b003" type="p" sha256="6cad1eaecdf25f0dc0d5991d5bab51ef3aa8c77a7bf79882ea3f1bea4e6d6cbf" xml:space="preserve">In my opinion, a useful explanation needs more than a credential or a story that sounds good. I want to know what the person can explain, show, and support. Whether that person stutters is not enough to answer those questions. My own experience is one source of ideas; it does not make me the judge of everybody else&apos;s qualifications.</block>
      <block id="p019-b004" type="p" sha256="6b3741f8035ffe73232645f29cbbf5887fe719b34b589cd5ed995cb093766c69" xml:space="preserve">I wanted to see the work in actual conversations: a store, a social situation, or a call. That is why showing my own speaking matters to me. A demonstration can show what happened in that encounter. It cannot promise what will happen for every person who watches.</block>
      <block id="p019-b005" type="p" sha256="2c8a6e4ad6a30c97539076d60647c4ab0ed7ed2879f616c268df6dde2e8a3a34" xml:space="preserve">Well, look at my story. I depended on the experts, and spent tens of thousands of dollars, and just as important, wasted years of my life. The money is important. The years of my life wasted hit just as hard. D*mn.</block>
      <block id="p019-b006" type="p" sha256="73a0d21d35c753486fa58e0ab9ccc829669dfc00adab1405019f1785dcde237d" xml:space="preserve">I had no one to guide me. No road map. No Discord. No one I could pay. I would have paid up so much money just to know what&apos;s ahead and to have a map. I had no map. I had to create my way out of the jungle.</block>
      <block id="p019-b007" type="p" sha256="d6eb741612392617e3c2e7851e37c1f74088fda99b8c4bf25659a5fc519cc326" xml:space="preserve">I do acknowledge there are multiple ways how to beat a stutter, and I can only speak about the way that helped me beat mine.</block>
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