# How did stuttering affect my choices at work?

By [Craig Coffee](/craig-coffee)

A lot of the cost was in things I didn't try. Chances I let slip away because I was scared. People didn't always have to tell me no; I had already taken myself out of it.

[I looked at work through my speech](/covert-stuttering-avoidance). How much talking would I have to do? I have also described feeling passed over for promotions. Those feelings were part of the life I was trying to change.

## I wanted my speech at work

A meeting, a call, speaking with my boss or a client: those were situations I wanted to handle. When someone important asked me to speak, I knew the feeling of my heart dropping.

I worked on [using my voice early in a meeting](/stuttering-in-meetings). I wrote down personal details people mentioned so I had something real to ask them the next time. I was doing that for my speech.

## Sometimes the task arrived quickly

On one process-improvement project, a senior person told the three of us we would be presenting at the company's town halls. We had four days. It turned into [seven panels over two days](/stuttering-at-work-presentations).

I was nervous and worked hard. Between sessions, I took a few minutes for my music before going back. I wanted the work I'd been doing on my speech to be there when a situation like that came.

That was why I kept testing what I learned in actual work situations: applying for jobs, presenting to colleagues, making calls. I wanted to be able to use it.

## A participant described a job he once would not have considered

Crimson, a police officer I spoke with in a group call, told me he still had difficult days and still stuttered, including at work. He said his job knew and was fine with it.

He said this was a job he once would not have thought of doing. Being out, talking with people and answering their questions mattered to him. His words were: “I need to go out there. I need to talk with people. And I need to be around people. And then have them ask me stuff.”

> **Crimson:** And then answer those questions.

## A caller described somebody else telling him no

A caller from Oman told me about an opportunity to become a commercial pilot. He said he had been told they didn't want somebody who stuttered. I was sorry to hear it. So much of my own cost had been the risks I didn't take or opportunities I let go before somebody could tell me no.

> **Craig:** a lot of mine was things I did not do risks I did not take or chances I let slip through my hands but with you you actually got a real no

He also told me what he wanted to do next: cybersecurity, the direction he had wanted to pursue as a child. The pilot opportunity had excited him, and he described being hurt when it ended. He was now talking about a different direction he wanted for himself.

## Related answers

- [What do I write down before another client conversation?](/stuttering-with-customers-and-clients)
- [How did I learn to feel more confident before speaking?](/confidence-before-speaking)
- [What did I tell someone who was worried about a job interview?](/stuttering-job-interview)
- [Why could a work call feel harder when other people could hear me?](/stuttering-when-people-overhear-phone-calls)

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