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  "source_markdown": "# Do I ever stutter now?\n\nBy [Craig Coffee](/craig-coffee)\n\nYes. In a group conversation, I was saying, “It's too early in the day to hate yourself,” and I pointed out a stutter right there.\n\nI explained how much emotional baggage was tied to that phrase for me. It had been a personal fucking struggle. Then I said, “I'm real, and there are stutters at times, and there was one there.”\n\n## I've spoken about less-smooth work moments too\n\nIn that same conversation, I said there are times I'm less smooth at work, when presenting to five or ten people feels uncomfortable. That was something I acknowledged while talking about my speech.\n\nIn a call with Don, I talked about how my speech and confidence had felt between two recordings.\n\n> **Craig:** I don't always live in a flow state. […] between recordings one and two today, right? I felt tired and low energy.\n\n## What I mean by the life I have now\n\nI can go out, talk to strangers, make calls and speak in the places that used to intimidate me. I love my style, and I've worked on it. That is the life behind [what fluency means to me](/what-fluency-means).\n\nI still do the things that helped me. Most of the time it's subconscious because I've done them for so many years. I still have to [bring it again](/keeping-my-speaking-practice-going) in the next conversation.\n\nWhen I point out a stutter in the middle of sharing this, that is part of my account too. I have said it plainly.\n\n## What an earlier note actually said\n\nI wrote about the ongoing work in a short manuscript passage:\n\n> **Craig, in the manuscript note:** I’m going to share with you what’s working for me. How I have been able to increase my fluency. I do want you to understand one important thing: I am not 100% fluent. I am still working on myself. But I can proudly say I have come far. If you knew what I overcame, you’d be amazed.\n\n## Related answers\n\n- [Do I mean a cure when I say I beat my stutter?](/can-stuttering-be-cured)\n\n[Find your question](/questions)\n",
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      "source_markdown": "Yes. In a group conversation, I was saying, “It's too early in the day to hate yourself,” and I pointed out a stutter right there.\n\nI explained how much emotional baggage was tied to that phrase for me. It had been a personal fucking struggle. Then I said, “I'm real, and there are stutters at times, and there was one there.”\n\n",
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      "source_markdown": "## I've spoken about less-smooth work moments too\n\nIn that same conversation, I said there are times I'm less smooth at work, when presenting to five or ten people feels uncomfortable. That was something I acknowledged while talking about my speech.\n\nIn a call with Don, I talked about how my speech and confidence had felt between two recordings.\n\n> **Craig:** I don't always live in a flow state. […] between recordings one and two today, right? I felt tired and low energy.\n\n",
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      "source_markdown": "## What I mean by the life I have now\n\nI can go out, talk to strangers, make calls and speak in the places that used to intimidate me. I love my style, and I've worked on it. That is the life behind [what fluency means to me](/what-fluency-means).\n\nI still do the things that helped me. Most of the time it's subconscious because I've done them for so many years. I still have to [bring it again](/keeping-my-speaking-practice-going) in the next conversation.\n\nWhen I point out a stutter in the middle of sharing this, that is part of my account too. I have said it plainly.\n\n",
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      "source_markdown": "## What an earlier note actually said\n\nI wrote about the ongoing work in a short manuscript passage:\n\n> **Craig, in the manuscript note:** I’m going to share with you what’s working for me. How I have been able to increase my fluency. I do want you to understand one important thing: I am not 100% fluent. I am still working on myself. But I can proudly say I have come far. If you knew what I overcame, you’d be amazed.\n\n",
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      "source_markdown": "## Related answers\n\n- [Do I mean a cure when I say I beat my stutter?](/can-stuttering-be-cured)\n",
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